July in Hilo , HI. My heart is lifted by all that is floral! Sight, scent, texture, even sometimes taste. All geographic areas have beauty… Hawaiian flowers captured my fancy! Here are some of the pinks!
My natural inclination all my life has been to hit the ground running. Our ever-moving culture rewards us for how much we do, how hard we work, how little we sleep and how many items we can check off our daily, weekly, monthly, yearly, mental “to do” lists. It seems if we can commiserate it somehow makes this way of being acceptable even admirable. Some folks measure virtue and goodness around how many activities can be packed in a day.
The Sanskrit word for contentment is Santosha. Practicing yoga and connecting with the breath every day has enabled me to find more within my life. The slow shift from “doing” to “being” is nothing short of a miracle. Trying to align my thoughts with who I am vs. what I do, after years of conditioning is a very new way of being which I am learning to love.
Over the spring and summer I had the privilege of an extended visit from my middle daughter Kaci. She stayed at our home for most of her first pregnancy while her husband was deployed to Afghanistan. Focusing on the here and now Kaci lived her life in the moment stringing together days, weeks, finally, months. She disciplined her mind to release all in her life she couldn’t control.
Watching her was beautiful and poignant. She, her younger sister and I spent many days together touching and photographing her growing belly. Hunting and gathering items to be sent in overseas packages became a science, what would parish, what was necessary, what was special and what was fun. Her soldier received gifts filled with her heart. He received a 3-d glimpse of his baby in her womb via high-tech images transferred from computer to paper, mundane yet so important socks, underwear and toiletries, sweet personal touches shared just between the two them, and countless other items. Her days were productive and meaningful. Conversations were positive and hopeful. The example she set was a lesson in choosing thoughts and behaviors making the most of the now. Kaci’s daily mantra was that of many military wives “No news is good news, all is well.” Thankfully my son-in-law arrived home healthy and whole two and a half weeks before the birth of their son born on 11/25/13. On a recent visit to their home, I watched a lovely new family finding joy moment to moment.
Although I have one of those busy daily agendas, today I chose to embrace the simple yet essential moments before and after the tasks at hand. This morning I tasted my coffee, I gazed out my bedroom window watched the sky grow from dark to light. Breathing deeply, I said “thank you’. I already had a wonderful conversation with my eldest daughter Kara. The rest of the day will be filled with meetings, clients and the last regularly scheduled public class I will teach at my studio. “All will be well.” I plan to love my man, call my mom, laugh with my youngest daughter, Dani, and dance. These are the moments that count. No need to compare, compete or complain to myself or with others. Thank you Kaci.
I have read spiritual writings from every source imaginable since I was a kid. Most of us reach “out there” to find the contentment within. I have made tremendous progress, I want to keep going.
Practicing and teaching yoga has helped me rediscover my authenticity. It is a process, not an event.
I have a few special friends who “knew me when’, who are also on a quest of the heart, mind and spirit. A lot of times I hear my friend Karen’s voice in my mind saying “It is your life so whatcha gonna do?” This questions inspires me to keep deciding, editing and breathing.
The better question for me at this juncture may be “Who ya gonna be?”
I “live out loud” every day; fearlessly sharing my past and present life circumstances as a way to connect. I have said many times I do not believe it is our assets which unite us, but the way we handle our struggles. Many of us believe we are “terminally unique”. We are more alike than not. If my thoughts, feelings and experiences help anyone, great. If not, I am writing almost everyday which is the goal.
I see facebook as one of the best/worst things that has happened to our society. Twitter doesn’t interest me much, my blog posts land there and on Linked In. Those sites do not lure me as facebook does. So for now, for at least a month, I am taking a break from all the hoopla on my page. Nothing earth shattering has happened. Yet after so much participation, promoting my business, sharing inspiring quotes, ad infinitum ( I love is this expression and use it as much as I can) I can say that I am bordering on addiction.
Addiction is rarely good.
Today activities: working with clients, the next to the last day of public classes and taking care of my daughter who is a bit under the weather. I won’t be checking facebook in between. I will be reading my books, petting my dogs and enjoy being “unplugged:!